I often get overwhelmed and depressed. There, I said it. I didn’t want to say it. I don’t like talking about my weaknesses.
I fall into the trap that many other pastors do. We often feel we must appear to have it all together all the time.
We don’t have it all together all the time! But you already knew that, didn’t you!?
I would rather talk about my spiritual gift inventory that reveals the strengths of teaching and encouragement. I would rather point to (brag about) the things I’m “good at.”
I regularly pray rebuking these spiritual attacks attempting to defeat me. I ask often that these feelings of inadequacy and depression be covered by the blood of Jesus. In Jesus’ name I tell Satan to get behind me and out of my life. I use memorized verses to replace the thoughts that want to tear me down.
Why can I be honest about something I really want to pretend doesn’t exist? Because the apostle Paul with all of his strengths, letters he wrote, sermons he preached, churches he started, and mission trips led did the same thing!!!!
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. 2 Corinthians 12:9 ESV
Admitting my weaknesses helps me realize that the grace of Jesus Christ is enough for me!
Being honest about my humanity helps me see His power at work in my weaknesses!
Only by admitting my weaknesses can the power of Christ truly rest upon me!
Jesus did not suddenly appear on eath as a victorious, conquering King. He revealed himself in weakness. He came as a helpless baby dependent on his mother. Even in Christmas we celebrate power revealed in weakness!
Since the Son of God became weak to show God’s great power and love, how much more must we follow in His steps!
Our Father, we are weak, dysfunctional, and damaged in many ways. THANK-YOU that Your grace is enough for us, Your power is perfected in our weaknesses, and the power of Christ rests upon us in spite of ourselves. We admit to You our many weaknesses so that today Your power will shine brightly through us. Thank-you for the constant presence of Jesus in us who makes this possible.